workshop

Last Wednesday the acting workshop became an extremely emotional environment. Half of the group cried hysterically at different times. I was one of the people bawling. Although crying is very familiar to me, this was a little different. I wasn't fighting myself while crying, and when I began to Jim must have noticed because he came over and pulled my hand away from my mouth and held it. He wanted us to be free, even if that meant being vulnerable.

Our vulnerability is what made the workshop so powerful. I've been afraid to write about it, because I don't have any words that can truly express the experience I had. But I'm writing this now solely because I want to have another incredible experience tomorrow and I know I need to blog about the workshop to get that chance. It's just very difficult for me to write about something so powerful and brief without making it lose its value.

Even the idea of vulnerability is scary, let alone experiencing it openly in a group. But I understand now how necessary weakness and openness is in art. I've always somewhat known that but I had never seen it so clearly before. Every one of us said that our inner child wanted to play, or be free, or have fun! And once we centered ourselves around being this inner child we all felt shaky and vulnerable. But you have to be vulnerable to be free. And I believe everyone experienced that.