Freedom

Letting go of your brain and acting on impulse really helps the true emotion of a moment shine through. I experienced this Wednesday while doing a scene with Matt. Jim Bonnie gave us a script that was pretty simple and had room for a lot of tension. Then the group came up with a scenario. I was a recovered alcoholic/drug addict and Matt was my son who was a using drug addict who had just escapes from rehab. After our first time doing the scene the he made us do it again using the Miezner repetition technique. This technique added more truth and tension to the scene because our emotions were heightened and we were acting on our impulses. Then he had us do the scene one more time without repetition but still using the same level of energy and impulse. In the middle of the scene Jim Bonnie got up and took away our scripts. We continued the scene with improvisation which came more naturally than ever before. There was no fear or hesitation and I felt a deep connection to the scene. Then I told Matt he was killing himself and breaking my heart. I Kept telling him he was breaking ,y heart and I felt a lump of pain growing in my throat. Jim Bonnie got up and walked over to me. He pushed my torso down so that I was hanging my head as if I was about to touch my toes. He started shaking me and telling me to let out the pain. My face got warm and my eyes began to swell. I lifted myself up and continued the scene. Within 5 seconds I was hysterically crying and yelling at Matt to get better. Crying during a scene was an incredible experience that I never got to feel before. I'm not sure how Bonnie knew that there was pain waiting in my throat but I'm glad that he noticed and acted upon it.